I had always heard from people… Love is a tough path to follow, but I always thought, If I fell in love, I would make the path easy for me. I guess thoughts remain thoughts.

I am in love, no doubt, but these days I can not stand his talks. I dont know why, there are things that irritate me and I dont even know what they are. I dont want to lose him… I wanna be with him, love him like a mad, shower him with him. But I guess these days I m the one who needs love… I have no love in me to give… I was giving, giving and giving.. and now when I m going through a bad phase, and there is no love within me to shower him with, I can’t even feel his love, It feels as if till I was able to show love, he was there with me, and now, when I need the real love, I can not get it back, or maybe I cant feel it. Everything in world seems dull to me, pointless, meaningless, even when he talks about music, movies, I feel this defiance, as if I hate everything he likes, even myself. :( Its SICK… I wanna get out of this SICKNESS.. its eating me.

I love him, and want to make up for all the times I’ve hurt him, but can’t he see that I need love, he never does anything that pleases me, or he doesnt know how to make me happy, he says he loves me… DOES HE ? Or is he just fond of me? I dont know, but I cant feel the real love.

(well, this is something I wrote a while back, DONT MEAN IT NOW… I already said these exact same words to him, and we happened to work everything out… He has been really patient and understanding through all this, and now I know, Our relationship is a strong one, we cant and we wont give up on us so easily.. :) as we know, No relationship is a path laid with flowers only, thorns accompany too. )

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