Every relationship goes through a hard time.. and so is mine.. it is hard time, I sometimes feel he doesn’t love me a lot as much as he can, he is just there with me so that I can feel he is with me but actually, I feel he doesn’t love me at all… He likes other girls also, that is what I feel, is he cheating on me? Does he really love me? I don’t know, and I don’t know what to believe, my mind says, play him his way, but my heart loves this boy a lot. I am very crazy about him. I love him, I have never imagined this much for any other guy, the way I imagine for him. And the good part is how I got him i my life. He amazes my senses, he can actually impart feelings in my heart in a way none else can… kissing and hugging.. its very exciting with him… and sometimes, it is sick when our thoughts don’t match! But I love him, I m crazy for him, is he crazy for me too? I will know.. or maybe I know… HE DOES !! But he doesnt express.. Do I really understand him well?? Or do I not ?? I will know…. !!

Sometimes I feel like talking about every nonsensical thing in my life with him…Like which is the most comfortable position while sleeping.. like which brush do we use… like wht is the first thought that strikes in my head after waking up in the morning..its all about him now.. I want to live his life… I want him to live my life….like we are living together.. I love him… I love him a lott… I don’t want these moments to go away just in a flash.. I feel like remembering every little moment I spend with him.. I want my love to come out and rain on him…and let him feel the love…all the craziness..I want to go nuts all over him!!! But what stops me?? Maybe the expectations I make… like if I do this.. he should react like this n that.. I should forget the expectations.. let him react anyhow he wants to.. even if he reacts coldly.. let me give my best to him.. and see if it maters to him….I shall give in my best of the best..!!!! I am coming back to me…thanks to him… !! :)

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