So, here is what I have been thinking..
When you are in a relationship, you want the other person to understand certain things..while you yourself want to understand certain things about him… but unless you dont see him understand anything, you dont feel like getting to understand him any further..
I HATE LIES, and its not easy for me to move on from one BIG FAT LIE which almost ruined the “feel good” factor about the relationship. Love doesnt die, obviously, it stays in heart, but that respect for the person subsides.. and then, everything starts to seem pointless, like being in a relationship with someone who lies on such small things, which hasnt just happened once.
I will mention again, LOVE doesnt die from heart, but i hate to love..
I dont want to love someone I can not be with, but I am helpless, I just can not stop loving him so easily.. I may have given up on the relationship,but stop loving him, I can not, I can not be with someone I dont respect anymore, for not just one reason, but many, which are reasons enough to discard all the good things that he may have done.

And if it is really love what he claims of, why the hell dont I see any improvement in the connection we should have shared.. its like, If i have told him that i have stopped loving him, does that mean it is OK for him to stop loving me, because what I remember is winning him and making him fall in love with me, when he did not have any feelings for me.. and how I wish, he could win me over… or atleast the TRUST that i have lost, and maybe give me back my FAITH in love that I once had, that I have lost completely.

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